I'm a terrible blogger

I have to confess that I'm a really terrible blogger. It's not that I don't have any good ideas for blogs, I have ideas all the time. And it's not that I can't write, it's that when I do write I want to do it right – See how I turned a phrase there? Don't tell me I don't have incredible literary skillz.

...and then there's proof reading... oh the proof reading. Particularly if it's a long piece, I have a lot of trouble because I'm dyslexic.

Every time I think about writing something, I think of the proper way to do it. If you're going to take the time to do something, you should do it right! Right? The problem with that is that the right way takes time; writing, researching, clipping pictures, embedding them in a visually effective way and then there's proof reading... oh the proof reading. Particularly if it's a long piece, I have a lot of trouble because I'm dyslexic.

So I come up with ideas, jot a few notes down to remind me and then commit to write the piece “when I have time”.

I never have time.

The time I plan to write a proper blog is the same time I plan to work on remodeling the house, landscaping my yard, programming, researching new technologies, exploring animation, compositing and editing techniques, reading, studying, volunteering at church, camping, fishing and, oh yeah, going to work every day. Not to mention my “long suffering wife” (as I'm sure my obituary will say) likes it when I spend a little time with her.

So I end up never writing anything because it's always far down on my to-do list. I feel like there must be a discipline to blogging, but then again there's just a lot of terrible blogging out there; half-complete ideas, teasers for things that never get finished and unresearched how-tos and tutorials. I don't want to be one of those types of bloggers, so I end up doing nothing. It might be a form a narcissism on my part, to think anyone would really cares that much, but I know I just hate landing on a half-baked blog when I'm searching the Internet.

Traditional writing is better for me. Jot down notes, think about it, jot down a few more notes. Sit down and write a first draft then throw that away and write a second draft.

I thought Twitter would fill in the gap a little, being able to post small thoughts there and then compiling them into blogs later. But then I end up not wanting to get into anything on Twitter before I've fully explored it and I don't always have time for it either, so I get started and then drop it and have trouble getting back into the right mindset.

Traditional writing is better for me. Jot down notes, think about it, jot down a few more notes. Sit down and write a first draft then throw that away and write a second draft. By that point, I'm starting to get a pretty good, coherent and engaging piece of writing finished. With further refinements it might actually be interesting, informative and a pleasure to read.

That's just the way I like to write but there is never the time. So either I have to abandon that or not blog.

In the meantime, while I try to figure it out, enjoy my sporadic writing and I'm sorry if I write half a piece of documentation and don't get around to finishing it for awhile. Feel free to email if there is something you want elaborate on or finish.

-Joe